Saturday, June 25, 2011

sorry if its a little emo, ruth is having a shitsucking week

Your movement is so clear and interactive
elusive and downright befuddling

it's clear You're speaking.
it's fuzzy - Your meaning.

right now all i can do is perk up
and listen to the You inside me.

but You're outside.
separate.
one.
You and i are One.
or was it one?

godliness with contentment is great gain.

godliness, a question i don't want to answer.
afraid to find myself wanting,
disgusted to find myself succeeding at religion.

was there a middle ground?
what the hell does it mean to be like You?

godliness with contentment is great gain.

contentment, a question i hope You answer.
are You content with this?
i hope so.

are You content with the fact that i am only content if You are?

is that love?
or have we discovered another limp,
another break,
another pathway to be rerouted?

godliness with contentment is great gain.

have i gained when my world is so entirely gray?
the puzzle pieces have obscured,
everything blends together. . .
everything is nothing, and nothing, everything.


sweet Jesus Christ my clarity
sweet Jesus Christ my sanity

-r

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